Here's to the Owls

I'm at Kennesaw State University.

And quite honestly, I have no idea why.

This has been a pretty though struggle for me recently. Above is a boy that I adore and a girl I'd die for. Christian, my boyfriend, and Allie, my roommate and best friend are just two of the fabulous reasons I wake up singing praises to God almost daily.

But recently it's been trying not being in the same state as Christian, and even some days it feels like mine and Allie's rooms are lightyears apart.

These people, my friends at Covenant who consistantly send their love, my family back home who are always an encouragement, and my best friend who's only across campus -- these people are life changing.

Because, to be honest, I can say this is probably the time in my life where I have been most discontented with where the Lord has placed me.

There are quite a few complicated reasons that I could list, but to put it simply - I don't want to be here anymore. I am confused as to why I thought it was the perfect decision last year in March.

So, this post has no answers, only questions, and definite huge THANK YOU to these people whom I love and so consistantly love me.

Without you I would be lost.

For now, I am just living from visit to visit, trip to trip, and not staying satisfied with where I am. It has made me think about Heaven, oddly enough. Nothing like "Oh I'm in Hell, where's heaven at?!"

No, I've been thinking about how frustrating it is to always be looking ahead and be uncomfortable in your current situation.....

Then I think about how this is not our home, here on Earth. And so why should we ever be comfortable here? For those God called and brought into His family as sons and daughters - we have home to look FORWARD to.

Man.

And all this time I was feeling guilty.

Okay, so I am really trying to be more content with my situation since I am confident of the Lord's plan for my Earthly life. But I will not, however: become so comfortable and satisfied that I never look forward to my Heavenly home with all of those special people I love, and with my Father.

So, for now, I'm here. I am a fighting owl here at KSU.

And I will be ALL HERE, as my Dad says - until I am somewhere else.

"Wherever you are, be all there."

[small shout out to Joel who posted something today about Heaven and not only reminded me of this truth, but also reminded me that I have a blog too...thanks buddy]

M